Life's Haunting Questions.
If you have sex with a prostitute against her will, is it considered rape or shoplifting?
Can you cry under water?
How important does a person have to be before they are considered assassinated instead of just murdered?
Why do you have to 'put your two cents in'... but it's only a 'penny for your thoughts'? Where's that extra penny going to?
Once you're in heaven, do you get stuck wearing the clothes you were buried in for eternity?
Why does a round pizza come in a square box?
What disease did cured ham actually have?
How is it that we put man on the moon before we figured out it would be a good idea to put wheels on luggage?
Why is it that people say they 'slept like a baby' when babies wake up like every two hours?
If a deaf person has to go to court, is it still called a hearing?
Why are you IN a movie, but you're ON TV?
Why do people pay to go up tall buildings and then put money in binoculars to look at things on the ground?
Why do doctors leave the room while you change?
They're going to see you naked anyway...
Why is 'bra' singular and 'panties' plural?
Why do toasters always have a setting that burns the toast to a horrible crisp, which no decent human being would eat?
If Jimmy cracks corn and no one cares, why is there a stupid song about him?
If the professor on Gilligan's Island can make a radio out of a coconut, why can't he fix a hole in a boat?
Why does Goofy stand erect while Pluto remains on all fours?
They're both dogs!
If Wile E. Coyote had enough money to buy all that ACME crap, why didn't he just buy dinner?
If corn oil is made from corn, and vegetable oil is made from vegetables, what is baby oil made from?
If electricity comes from electrons, does morality come from morons?
Do the Alphabet song and Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star have the same tune?
Why did you just try singing the two songs above?
Why do they call it an asteroid when it's outside the hemisphere, but call it a hemorrhoid when it's in your butt?
Did you ever notice that when you blow in a dog's face, he gets mad at you, but when you take him for a car ride, he sticks his head out the window?
Why, Why, Why
Why do we press harder on a remote control when we know the batteries are getting dead?
Why do banks charge a fee on 'insufficient funds' when they know there is not enough money?
Why does someone believe you when you say there are four billion stars, but check when you say the paint is wet?
Why do they use sterilized needles for death by lethal injection?
Why doesn't Tarzan have a beard?
Why does Superman stop bullets with his chest, but ducks when you throw a revolver at him?
Why do Kamikaze pilots wear helmets?
Whose idea was it to put an 'S' in the word 'lisp'?
If people evolved from apes,
why are there still apes?
Why is it that no matter what color bubble bath you use the bubbles are always white?
Is there ever a day that mattresses
are not on sale?
Why do people constantly return to the refrigerator with hopes that something new to eat will have materialized?
Why do people keep running over a string a dozen times with their vacuum cleaner, then reach down, pick it up, examine it, then put it down to give the vacuum one more chance?
Why is it that no plastic bag will open from the end on your first try?
How do those dead bugs get into those enclosed light fixtures?
When we are in the supermarket and someone rams our ankle with a shopping cart then apologizes for doing so, why do we say, 'It's all right?' Well, it isn't all right, so why don't we say, 'That really hurt, why don't you watch where you're going?'
Why is it that whenever you attempt to catch something that's falling off the table you always manage to knock something else over?
In winter why do we try to keep the house as warm as it was in summer when we complained about the heat?
How come you never hear father-in-law jokes?
And my FAVORITE........
The statistics on sanity is that one out of every four persons are suffering from some sort of mental illness. Think of your three best friends -- if they're okay, then it's you.
Forget me - BT
I'll give to you if you give to me
I always want to hear what's on your mind
And from the other side, can you still answer me
'Cause we'll crave to be understood...yeah
And what I want to say
And what I need to hear
And what I want to feel
Is in those arms
And I'll sing to you if you sing to me
Because I long to hear what's on your heart...yeah
Forget me
I'm tired and wasted
Hopeless and faded
Listless and jaded
Forget me
I'm tired of waiting
I'm still underrated
I'm hopeful but jaded
But just remember
This is a beautiful mistake
I really need you
As our silence starts to break
It's already a fire
Created in all the walls we reached
And I don't know what you want me to be
But I don't want to be perfect anymore
I'll share with you if you share with me
I always want to hear what's on your mind
And from the other side, can you still answer me?
Because I live to speak what's on my heart...yeah
Forget me
I'm tired and wasted
Listless and jaded
Hopeless and faded
Forget me
I'm tired of waiting
Still underrated
But I'm finally awake
Let us remember
Life's such a beautiful mistake
It's precious and fragile
Sometimes more than we can take
It's already a fire
Created in all things men create
And I don't know what you want from me
But I don't want to be perfect anymore
Let us remember
Life's such a beautiful mistake
It's precious and fragile
Sometimes more than we can take
It's stronger than fire
Created in all the walls we reach
Letting go of fault and blame
'Cause I don't want to be perfect anymore
Yeah, I don't want to be perfect anymore
And you don't have to be perfect anymore
But your love, your love, your love, your love
Is perfect just the same
. <--Period
This isn't a blog about video games. shocking, I know. Also kindof a debbie downer, just warning. I'm pretty sure I'm on my period. I've been very mainic-depressive and pissy the past couple days, and its awful.
So I'm at work brooding (my bitch co-worker didn't show up) and I kindof realized something terribly depressing. I'm kindof lonley. I don't mean in that whiney "I'll never fall in love" sort of way, but rather I don't have many freinds. (Don't get me wrong, I wouldn't mind ending my extreemly long stint of singlehood) I don't know why, I used to have tons of friends. True, some have moved away, and I've had a fallout or two, but I really don't know when I became so unpopular. Alot of it is me, I rarely call people. The longer its been since i've talked to someone, the more akward I feel about doing it, which makes it even harder to reconnect. Also I think I've changed. I used to be so freindly and people loved me. I'd like to blame drinking, since i do alot of that now, but I used to meet people at parties all the time and become fast freinds with them. I don't know what to do about it, but I really wish I could figure it out.
Another woe of mine is money. This has always been a slight worry for me, or at least since getting out on my own, but with christmas approaching, its worse. I really want to be able to buy people [extravagant] presents, but its going to be difficult to afford this year and that makes me sad. I also feel sort of guilty when someone gets me a great present and I can't even muster up a shitty one. Though I am an art student now.... original prints for all!
I'm also kinda bombing at school, but this is 100% my fault. I have some late assignments that i still need to hand in, and i'm just procrastinating. I work well under pressure though, so I should be able to catch up pretty easily.
Trying to think of something happy to report, but I really can't so I guess I'll just leave you with that. If anyone has advice or comments I'd love to hear them. knowing people read my ramblings makes me happy lol.
~Ben
So I'm at work brooding (my bitch co-worker didn't show up) and I kindof realized something terribly depressing. I'm kindof lonley. I don't mean in that whiney "I'll never fall in love" sort of way, but rather I don't have many freinds. (Don't get me wrong, I wouldn't mind ending my extreemly long stint of singlehood) I don't know why, I used to have tons of friends. True, some have moved away, and I've had a fallout or two, but I really don't know when I became so unpopular. Alot of it is me, I rarely call people. The longer its been since i've talked to someone, the more akward I feel about doing it, which makes it even harder to reconnect. Also I think I've changed. I used to be so freindly and people loved me. I'd like to blame drinking, since i do alot of that now, but I used to meet people at parties all the time and become fast freinds with them. I don't know what to do about it, but I really wish I could figure it out.
Another woe of mine is money. This has always been a slight worry for me, or at least since getting out on my own, but with christmas approaching, its worse. I really want to be able to buy people [extravagant] presents, but its going to be difficult to afford this year and that makes me sad. I also feel sort of guilty when someone gets me a great present and I can't even muster up a shitty one. Though I am an art student now.... original prints for all!
I'm also kinda bombing at school, but this is 100% my fault. I have some late assignments that i still need to hand in, and i'm just procrastinating. I work well under pressure though, so I should be able to catch up pretty easily.
Trying to think of something happy to report, but I really can't so I guess I'll just leave you with that. If anyone has advice or comments I'd love to hear them. knowing people read my ramblings makes me happy lol.
~Ben
PS3 Lovins'
So once in a while I get 3 paychecks a month. My monthly bills are budgeted toward me having only 2 paychecks a month, this means the extra paycheck falls mostly into the 'spending money' category. October couldn't really have been a better month for me to get one of these such paychecks, because i blew a large chunk of it on video games (and some on a Halloween costume). So I am now playing 3 games and trying to juggle them all with work and school. Its pretty glorious.
First off, I got Demon's souls. Even among the gaming community this is kind of an obscure game, though because of good reviews its gained a lot of popularity with little to no advertising. These good reviews are well deserved and I am enjoying this game immensely. Its very difficult, but never 'cheap' nor frustrating. It is a welcome challenge in a world where a lot of games are too easy and too short.
I also picked up Borderlands. This just came out yesterday, so I haven't had a lot of time to invest in it, but so far so good. It is defiantly a first person shooter, but it has a lot of strong RPG elements and even plays a little like an MMO. This is pretty much the opposite of Fallout 3, which for sure an RPG, but it borrows a lot from FPS games. They are also similar in that they are almost like sci-fi and western mash-ups. In borderlands you will encounter localized pockets of randomly generating enemies, fetch quests, green and purple equips, and bonus experience from totally random quests that have no bearing on the story. You'll also find guns. lots of guns. there are uniques, and some enemies carry the same weapons and thus drop the same weapons, but the game has this unique random gun generator that plugs in some variables basically making a gun from millions of possibilities whenever random loot is created, for example random drops or chests. This basically means you'll never find the same gun twice, and chances are you won't have the same gun as anyone you play with/against. This is cool, but irksome to someone like me who always wants to have the best of the best, but in this game there is ALWAYS something better. Also, the ps3 version has a very broken online mode, and if you try it out, you will have to deal with system lock-ups while looking for a game. Apparently once in game its fine, but I haven't had the patience to find this out yet.
Lastly, I'm re-playing Katamari Damacy and We ♥ Katamari. This is because I'm entering a contest and while building my Katamari, i got an itch. My katamari itself is coming along nicely, but progress has slowed down. Its about 4 inches and the objects I'm gluing on are becoming heavy enough that i have to get them to stay and wait for the glue to dry before moving the katamari to glue the next object on. I'm thinking I need some of that super strong epoxy glue that gets your fingers stuck together. If anyone would like to donate objects to my katamari I would be appreciative, I'm starting to run out of stuff, and I'm hoping for a minimum of 3 feet. Please, nothing that will rot and stink up the place.
I had no interest in Uncharted 2, I didn't really like the first one, and I'm assuming the second has very similar gameplay, I keep seeing it everywhere though, and everyone says its really good. Its sorta like this but kinda the opposite, where the game is saying 'play me' and i just say back 'but I know I won't like your gameplay.' anyways, the callings got a lot stronger when I saw this now I really want to play it so I can annoy my twitter followers with random tweets about my game. This probably speaks more about my addiction to twitter than my addiction to video games, but I still like the idea, and I wish more games would have it. I'm certain the tweets say shit like 'I just reached level 20 in Uncharted 2: Among Thives! http://bit.ly/54de4 #uncharted2amongthieves @naughtydog @playstation' (the link re-directing to the official website) and all that extra shit on the end annoys me. I like my tweets simple. Also the grammar would either be perfect or shitty, and obviously not written in a way which that particular person writes. I dunno, in a perfect world I'd like more games to include that, but be able to write my own templates, then just plug in whichever variables apply at that time. example as I would write it: 'playing uncharted 2, just hit level 20'
So thats whats going on in my gaming life. Other than that work is the same, and school has been slow, mainly because about every class is being canceled because all my teachers are sick.
I'm out!
~Ben
First off, I got Demon's souls. Even among the gaming community this is kind of an obscure game, though because of good reviews its gained a lot of popularity with little to no advertising. These good reviews are well deserved and I am enjoying this game immensely. Its very difficult, but never 'cheap' nor frustrating. It is a welcome challenge in a world where a lot of games are too easy and too short.
I also picked up Borderlands. This just came out yesterday, so I haven't had a lot of time to invest in it, but so far so good. It is defiantly a first person shooter, but it has a lot of strong RPG elements and even plays a little like an MMO. This is pretty much the opposite of Fallout 3, which for sure an RPG, but it borrows a lot from FPS games. They are also similar in that they are almost like sci-fi and western mash-ups. In borderlands you will encounter localized pockets of randomly generating enemies, fetch quests, green and purple equips, and bonus experience from totally random quests that have no bearing on the story. You'll also find guns. lots of guns. there are uniques, and some enemies carry the same weapons and thus drop the same weapons, but the game has this unique random gun generator that plugs in some variables basically making a gun from millions of possibilities whenever random loot is created, for example random drops or chests. This basically means you'll never find the same gun twice, and chances are you won't have the same gun as anyone you play with/against. This is cool, but irksome to someone like me who always wants to have the best of the best, but in this game there is ALWAYS something better. Also, the ps3 version has a very broken online mode, and if you try it out, you will have to deal with system lock-ups while looking for a game. Apparently once in game its fine, but I haven't had the patience to find this out yet.
Lastly, I'm re-playing Katamari Damacy and We ♥ Katamari. This is because I'm entering a contest and while building my Katamari, i got an itch. My katamari itself is coming along nicely, but progress has slowed down. Its about 4 inches and the objects I'm gluing on are becoming heavy enough that i have to get them to stay and wait for the glue to dry before moving the katamari to glue the next object on. I'm thinking I need some of that super strong epoxy glue that gets your fingers stuck together. If anyone would like to donate objects to my katamari I would be appreciative, I'm starting to run out of stuff, and I'm hoping for a minimum of 3 feet. Please, nothing that will rot and stink up the place.
I had no interest in Uncharted 2, I didn't really like the first one, and I'm assuming the second has very similar gameplay, I keep seeing it everywhere though, and everyone says its really good. Its sorta like this but kinda the opposite, where the game is saying 'play me' and i just say back 'but I know I won't like your gameplay.' anyways, the callings got a lot stronger when I saw this now I really want to play it so I can annoy my twitter followers with random tweets about my game. This probably speaks more about my addiction to twitter than my addiction to video games, but I still like the idea, and I wish more games would have it. I'm certain the tweets say shit like 'I just reached level 20 in Uncharted 2: Among Thives! http://bit.ly/54de4 #uncharted2amongthieves @naughtydog @playstation' (the link re-directing to the official website) and all that extra shit on the end annoys me. I like my tweets simple. Also the grammar would either be perfect or shitty, and obviously not written in a way which that particular person writes. I dunno, in a perfect world I'd like more games to include that, but be able to write my own templates, then just plug in whichever variables apply at that time. example as I would write it: 'playing uncharted 2, just hit level 20'
So thats whats going on in my gaming life. Other than that work is the same, and school has been slow, mainly because about every class is being canceled because all my teachers are sick.
I'm out!
~Ben
Damn you, Gaming world!
Wow, I can't believe I haven't updated in over a month! wtf?! Anyways this is about the annual explosion of great games that will start exploding on store shelves like some sort of explody-thingy
My basic complaint is so many games, so little time (and so little room on the Christmas list) Its obscene. There are no less than 7 games that I *must* have, and with most at $60 a piece, this is quite an expensive endeavor. On top of the games themselves, I also really want a DSi, because a DS lite just won't do anymore.
The onslaught continues after the holiday season with god of war 3, Bayonetta, and not one, but 3 Final Fantasy games coming out in early 2010. Plus who knows what other treasures I've yet to discover for next year. Anyone have a large sum of money they'd like to lend me with no expectations of repayment?
I'd also like to bitch a little bit about professional gaming. I was curious about it tonight so i was investigating a little bit. there is no single defining organization for this, but rather a few. Its a fairly new 'sport' so there are definite organizational issues. I am, however, annoyed with the fact that pro gaming focuses almost solely on fist person shooters. The fact that I'm awful at these aside, I think its a joke that they use such a narrow spectrum of games to define gaming. Last year there was an international tournament that used a fighting game, an FPS, WOW, and a racing game, and each team had to have x number of players for each game, this made much more sense to me. I don't think I'm good enough at any particular game to ever be a pro gamer, so this isn't a personal gripe, but I do think the use of only FPS games by organizations such as major league gaming, and national gaming league is very limiting.
I'd also like to end on a positive note: My bejeweled scores have been ridiculous lately. good for me!
~Ben
My basic complaint is so many games, so little time (and so little room on the Christmas list) Its obscene. There are no less than 7 games that I *must* have, and with most at $60 a piece, this is quite an expensive endeavor. On top of the games themselves, I also really want a DSi, because a DS lite just won't do anymore.
The onslaught continues after the holiday season with god of war 3, Bayonetta, and not one, but 3 Final Fantasy games coming out in early 2010. Plus who knows what other treasures I've yet to discover for next year. Anyone have a large sum of money they'd like to lend me with no expectations of repayment?
I'd also like to bitch a little bit about professional gaming. I was curious about it tonight so i was investigating a little bit. there is no single defining organization for this, but rather a few. Its a fairly new 'sport' so there are definite organizational issues. I am, however, annoyed with the fact that pro gaming focuses almost solely on fist person shooters. The fact that I'm awful at these aside, I think its a joke that they use such a narrow spectrum of games to define gaming. Last year there was an international tournament that used a fighting game, an FPS, WOW, and a racing game, and each team had to have x number of players for each game, this made much more sense to me. I don't think I'm good enough at any particular game to ever be a pro gamer, so this isn't a personal gripe, but I do think the use of only FPS games by organizations such as major league gaming, and national gaming league is very limiting.
I'd also like to end on a positive note: My bejeweled scores have been ridiculous lately. good for me!
~Ben
Back to school.
So for those that don't know, I'm finally going back to school. I've pretty much been saying this every semester for the past 3 years, but now its happening fo ril ril. I'm both excited and nervous, and I totally can't believe classes start in 3 days. I'm majoring in Art, which if you asked me a year ago what I want to major in, art would be one of the last things I would say. Its not that I have a problem with it, but I always thought it was an impractical degree.
What else is new in my life? Pretty much nothing. I've been working too much (just finished a 9 day stretch). Karla and Sam are back in fargo. That covers it, I think. I have this survey my freind Leigh did. It has some interesting questions, and I haven't done one of these in ages.
Your mom finds used condoms in your room, you tell her?
Nothing. We would probably awkwardly avoid the subject. Though I don't know why she would be in my room...
Your phone is ringing. It's the person you fell hardest for, what do you say?
Hello?
Do you like to wear sweatpants?
I don't own 'sweatpants' but I do love my PJs
Are you wearing them right now?
Nope :D
Did you speak to your father today?
not yet, but there is a good chance I will.
If you HAD to kiss someone right now, who would it be?
whoever is convenient. so Sam I guess.
What do you think about the weather?
horrible. what a crap summer.
Are you ticklish?
Most of the time.
Who's car were you in last?
Ande's
Have you ever slapped someone?
Sure have. gatta keep my hos in line.
How many people do you trust with everything?
I dunno. I'm pretty secretive.
What was the last thing you drank?
Water
Have you ever been asked out by someone you didn't want to be with?
ah yep.
Is there anyone you want to come see you?
Not really. But I miss Joah's face so I wish he didn't live in oklahomo
Name one thing you love about winter?
When it ends.
When showering, do you start the water and then get in, or get in then start the water?
start the water, let it get warm, then get in.
Do you read the labels on your shampoo bottle?
yep lol, almost every time I shower.
Do you moan in the shower like the people on the Herbal Essences commercials?
umm... maybe if I'm having shower sex? lol
Have you ever brushed your teeth in the shower?
yes, but I hate it.
What are your plans for the weekend?
Aztec party... wooo-hoo!
Whats the sexiest thing about Condoleeza Rice?
Her name,lol. And her nappy teef.
Does anything on your body itch right now?
not until I read this question.
Does every family have a crazy uncle?
No, I think crazy aunts are more prevalent. I have several of those.
Does playing the guitar make a girl/guy more attractive?
no, I'd say less so.
Have you ever had sex in a tent?
Only with myself *sad*
What about in a boat?
nope
Canoe...
that'd be interesting...
Have you ever dated a Goth?
No, sick!
Can you fix your own car?
I can check the oil, and change a tire haha.
Do you find it hard to trust others?
Not really, though as mentioned I am secretive
What were you doing at 4am this morning?
wouldn't you like to know ;) (hint-hint.... getting a beej)
Does anyone call you babe or baby?
not really. I suppose gays use terms of endearment pretty loosely though.
How's your most recent ex doing?
I don't really have exs....
Tell me about the shirt you are wearing..
Its peach colored, and has two red spots on either side of the chest.
Would you kiss an ugly person for $1,000?
Um yes, easiest $1k ever
What's the very first thing you do when you wake up?
Try to go back to sleep hah. or check my phone.
What do you usually do when the clock turns 11:11?
I think about making a wish, then don't. maybe feel slightly sentimental.
Who was the last person of the opposite sex you had a conversation with?
Samantha I guess.
What are you wearing on your feet?
the floor.
Do you check your texts right away when you receive them?
usually.
Have you ever searched for your house on Google Earth?
Yep, and google street view. My parents house has a bunch of flamingo's in the front yard lol
Would you rather date someone older than you or younger?
Older
Have you ever found someone you really really really liked?
Of course, but alas......
Does anyone think you are an asshole?
Probably, but I like tho think i'm generally nice and well-liked
You wake up, all your hair is gone, your first reaction?
I dunno. probably shock and confusion.
What are you excited about?
school, the aztec party, getting my paycheck in a bit.
Are you listening to music right now?
no, though my WMP is open... because i was going to listen to music.
Were you happy when you woke up this morning?
no! I don't want to be awake right now (its still AM)
What did you have for breakfast?
nothing yet. but probably cinnamon toast crunch lol
Two days from now this time, where will you be?
hopefully sleeping
Has anyone upset you in the last week?
Yes. that fucking band that rehearses here. god i hate their existence.
Do you believe your ex cares about you?
Again, I lack exs
Are you short?
no, I think I'm the upper end of average.
How long have you been friends with your best friend?
Almost 9 years, I think.
Do you think your wasting your time on the person you like?
I don't 'like' someone right now....
If you could have one thing right now what would it be?
mmmm..... Pizza patrol breakfast pizza.
What are you listening to?
After the music question.... WMP on random (lindsay lohan - Edge of seventeen at the moment)
What is on your bed right now?
3 pillows, my phone, sheets, bed skirt, blanket, my ass, my mouse/makeshift mousepad, keyboard.
What/who woke you up this morning?
Probably the cold
Do you miss anyone?
I miss lots of people.
Will you be in a relationship next month?
I doubt it
Is there anyone in the room with you?
No
Could you go out in public looking like you do now?
I would probably be arrested lol.
When was the last time you saw your mom?
Muh birfday.
Do you think there is someone thinking about you right now?
Probably not.
Were you smiling in the last picture taken of you?
I dunno. probably I smile most of the time.... though i think i was trying to do a tim gunn 'thinking' pose.
ps. I need a new mouse
~Ben
What else is new in my life? Pretty much nothing. I've been working too much (just finished a 9 day stretch). Karla and Sam are back in fargo. That covers it, I think. I have this survey my freind Leigh did. It has some interesting questions, and I haven't done one of these in ages.
Your mom finds used condoms in your room, you tell her?
Nothing. We would probably awkwardly avoid the subject. Though I don't know why she would be in my room...
Your phone is ringing. It's the person you fell hardest for, what do you say?
Hello?
Do you like to wear sweatpants?
I don't own 'sweatpants' but I do love my PJs
Are you wearing them right now?
Nope :D
Did you speak to your father today?
not yet, but there is a good chance I will.
If you HAD to kiss someone right now, who would it be?
whoever is convenient. so Sam I guess.
What do you think about the weather?
horrible. what a crap summer.
Are you ticklish?
Most of the time.
Who's car were you in last?
Ande's
Have you ever slapped someone?
Sure have. gatta keep my hos in line.
How many people do you trust with everything?
I dunno. I'm pretty secretive.
What was the last thing you drank?
Water
Have you ever been asked out by someone you didn't want to be with?
ah yep.
Is there anyone you want to come see you?
Not really. But I miss Joah's face so I wish he didn't live in oklahomo
Name one thing you love about winter?
When it ends.
When showering, do you start the water and then get in, or get in then start the water?
start the water, let it get warm, then get in.
Do you read the labels on your shampoo bottle?
yep lol, almost every time I shower.
Do you moan in the shower like the people on the Herbal Essences commercials?
umm... maybe if I'm having shower sex? lol
Have you ever brushed your teeth in the shower?
yes, but I hate it.
What are your plans for the weekend?
Aztec party... wooo-hoo!
Whats the sexiest thing about Condoleeza Rice?
Her name,lol. And her nappy teef.
Does anything on your body itch right now?
not until I read this question.
Does every family have a crazy uncle?
No, I think crazy aunts are more prevalent. I have several of those.
Does playing the guitar make a girl/guy more attractive?
no, I'd say less so.
Have you ever had sex in a tent?
Only with myself *sad*
What about in a boat?
nope
Canoe...
that'd be interesting...
Have you ever dated a Goth?
No, sick!
Can you fix your own car?
I can check the oil, and change a tire haha.
Do you find it hard to trust others?
Not really, though as mentioned I am secretive
What were you doing at 4am this morning?
wouldn't you like to know ;) (hint-hint.... getting a beej)
Does anyone call you babe or baby?
not really. I suppose gays use terms of endearment pretty loosely though.
How's your most recent ex doing?
I don't really have exs....
Tell me about the shirt you are wearing..
Its peach colored, and has two red spots on either side of the chest.
Would you kiss an ugly person for $1,000?
Um yes, easiest $1k ever
What's the very first thing you do when you wake up?
Try to go back to sleep hah. or check my phone.
What do you usually do when the clock turns 11:11?
I think about making a wish, then don't. maybe feel slightly sentimental.
Who was the last person of the opposite sex you had a conversation with?
Samantha I guess.
What are you wearing on your feet?
the floor.
Do you check your texts right away when you receive them?
usually.
Have you ever searched for your house on Google Earth?
Yep, and google street view. My parents house has a bunch of flamingo's in the front yard lol
Would you rather date someone older than you or younger?
Older
Have you ever found someone you really really really liked?
Of course, but alas......
Does anyone think you are an asshole?
Probably, but I like tho think i'm generally nice and well-liked
You wake up, all your hair is gone, your first reaction?
I dunno. probably shock and confusion.
What are you excited about?
school, the aztec party, getting my paycheck in a bit.
Are you listening to music right now?
no, though my WMP is open... because i was going to listen to music.
Were you happy when you woke up this morning?
no! I don't want to be awake right now (its still AM)
What did you have for breakfast?
nothing yet. but probably cinnamon toast crunch lol
Two days from now this time, where will you be?
hopefully sleeping
Has anyone upset you in the last week?
Yes. that fucking band that rehearses here. god i hate their existence.
Do you believe your ex cares about you?
Again, I lack exs
Are you short?
no, I think I'm the upper end of average.
How long have you been friends with your best friend?
Almost 9 years, I think.
Do you think your wasting your time on the person you like?
I don't 'like' someone right now....
If you could have one thing right now what would it be?
mmmm..... Pizza patrol breakfast pizza.
What are you listening to?
After the music question.... WMP on random (lindsay lohan - Edge of seventeen at the moment)
What is on your bed right now?
3 pillows, my phone, sheets, bed skirt, blanket, my ass, my mouse/makeshift mousepad, keyboard.
What/who woke you up this morning?
Probably the cold
Do you miss anyone?
I miss lots of people.
Will you be in a relationship next month?
I doubt it
Is there anyone in the room with you?
No
Could you go out in public looking like you do now?
I would probably be arrested lol.
When was the last time you saw your mom?
Muh birfday.
Do you think there is someone thinking about you right now?
Probably not.
Were you smiling in the last picture taken of you?
I dunno. probably I smile most of the time.... though i think i was trying to do a tim gunn 'thinking' pose.
ps. I need a new mouse
~Ben
The little things
Hello. I haven't updated in a while, and I've been meaning to for a couple weeks now. I'd just like to give a little update on my life I suppose.
I've been half-assedly looking for a second job all summer. still no luck, but I'm hopeful about an application I filled out for a liquor store. My hours have kinda sucked lately at Holiday Inn, mainly because the lady that works opposite of me hasn't asked me to fill in for her in a while, which used to bring me up to full time hours almost every week. This of course has lead to a lack of money and a lot of stress surrounding bills etc. Its really exhausting.
In other depressing news, I haven't been sleeping right. I don't know what it is, but its starting to affect my health, which is not good. I've had a sore throat for almost two weeks now and haven't gotten more than a few hours of sleep each day. It could be stress related, even though I don't really think about my problems when I'm in bed. It could also just be that sleeping during the day when its 80 degrees out is just impossible. Either way I need to figure out a solution asap.
I also just realized, as I was sitting at the table while a brothel party wound down, I really don't much care for a lot of the people that hang out here now. Its not that I dislike them, but I just find many of them uninteresting. These are all people that AJ invites, which is fine, but obviously since I'm fairly ambivalent on their presence, they're not my friends. Don't worry though, if you're reading this you're not any of the people that I'm referencing (most likely anyways). Anyways, its not that I dislike them being here either, but I'm not going to go out of my way to make conversation when they are here. Though I'm sure if i got to know them they are nice people. The somewhat ironic twist to this is I've recently decided (read: 15 minutes ago) that I would really like to meet some new people.
As far as boys go: I guess I'd also like to meet new people on that front. I was kinda silly and gave up on a good thing without really giving it a good chance. I kinda regret being an asshole about it, but I don't regret this almost-relationship ending since I didn't want to get into something I wasn't fully invested it because that's not really fair. I kinda feel that right now I need to get laid (maybe that'll help me sleep lol) and then get back into the love game. I actually have had my eye on a hottie thats been at the last couple brothel parties, but i hardly know him and he's so deep in the closet he's finding next year's christmas presents (Samantha if you read this: your 3rd wife's (the one after me) wife is who i'm referencing).
What else is new with me? hmm... not much. Been playing a lot of video games (haha, since when is that new) I've gotten back into fallout 3, and I might actually finish it this time instead of just wandering around wasting time. I've been trying to find this obscure game, but none of the video stores have it (and i'm too poor to buy it) its been getting really great reviews and has a pretty good cult following. I guess i'll just have to set aside some money and just buy it eventually.
Well I think that about wraps it up. nice long update on my life I suppose. Sorry its so depressing though. Maybe writing it out will help release some stress :)
~Ben
I've been half-assedly looking for a second job all summer. still no luck, but I'm hopeful about an application I filled out for a liquor store. My hours have kinda sucked lately at Holiday Inn, mainly because the lady that works opposite of me hasn't asked me to fill in for her in a while, which used to bring me up to full time hours almost every week. This of course has lead to a lack of money and a lot of stress surrounding bills etc. Its really exhausting.
In other depressing news, I haven't been sleeping right. I don't know what it is, but its starting to affect my health, which is not good. I've had a sore throat for almost two weeks now and haven't gotten more than a few hours of sleep each day. It could be stress related, even though I don't really think about my problems when I'm in bed. It could also just be that sleeping during the day when its 80 degrees out is just impossible. Either way I need to figure out a solution asap.
I also just realized, as I was sitting at the table while a brothel party wound down, I really don't much care for a lot of the people that hang out here now. Its not that I dislike them, but I just find many of them uninteresting. These are all people that AJ invites, which is fine, but obviously since I'm fairly ambivalent on their presence, they're not my friends. Don't worry though, if you're reading this you're not any of the people that I'm referencing (most likely anyways). Anyways, its not that I dislike them being here either, but I'm not going to go out of my way to make conversation when they are here. Though I'm sure if i got to know them they are nice people. The somewhat ironic twist to this is I've recently decided (read: 15 minutes ago) that I would really like to meet some new people.
As far as boys go: I guess I'd also like to meet new people on that front. I was kinda silly and gave up on a good thing without really giving it a good chance. I kinda regret being an asshole about it, but I don't regret this almost-relationship ending since I didn't want to get into something I wasn't fully invested it because that's not really fair. I kinda feel that right now I need to get laid (maybe that'll help me sleep lol) and then get back into the love game. I actually have had my eye on a hottie thats been at the last couple brothel parties, but i hardly know him and he's so deep in the closet he's finding next year's christmas presents (Samantha if you read this: your 3rd wife's (the one after me) wife is who i'm referencing).
What else is new with me? hmm... not much. Been playing a lot of video games (haha, since when is that new) I've gotten back into fallout 3, and I might actually finish it this time instead of just wandering around wasting time. I've been trying to find this obscure game, but none of the video stores have it (and i'm too poor to buy it) its been getting really great reviews and has a pretty good cult following. I guess i'll just have to set aside some money and just buy it eventually.
Well I think that about wraps it up. nice long update on my life I suppose. Sorry its so depressing though. Maybe writing it out will help release some stress :)
~Ben
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